The Word... IS... The way

Wow is all I can say.  I am always amazed at how God continues to open my heart and show me more and more with his word.  Today I was studying the Crucifixion.  Using the Archeological Bible it is all so real.   It touched me so much.  Jesus sacrificed so much, went through so much for my horrible sinful self.  Later on in prayer I realized that through this project I am learning to be the lamp stand God created me to be.  To shine as he designed me to.  Not with postcards, handouts or catch phrases, but using the tools the Lord has given me.  It truly is the most challenging walk I have taken, because it's all me out there.  I can't act the rehearsed lines, or hand out the written phrases.  It's my heart devotion, my faith, my life commitment and my example that speak or are silent and that is convicting.  God is who does the work.  Thank God he is with me though each step.  I see now what I was trying to say in "I am right here".    I just hadn't learned it yet.  But I knew something wasn't right.    --the learning never ends.

Be a Lamp on a Stand - Midterm Review...

I just had midterm Reviews.  It was a great experience.  To God be the Glory!! What is showed me is that just as in Mark 4:25 I need to be a Lamp stand:  

"Do you bring in a lamp to put it under a bowl or a bed? Instead, don't you put it on its stand?  For whatever is hidden is meant to be disclosed, and whatever is disclosed is meant to be brought out into the open.  If any on has ears to hear, let him hear."  

And so I see I need to be a lamp. Some of the comments I was given were directly toward the motivation of my piece and what I was saying and how I need to say it fully.  

In the Lofe Application bible the question asked along with this scripture is if your life is show others how to find God and if not what bowls are in your way.  For me, my bowls are:

Fear

A desire to fit in

Wanting acceptance more than righteousness - I fought so long to be accepted, then got it, then realized it was useless, then found that what was really valuable was God, but still fight with myself for social acceptance.

But, just as the purpose of a Thesis is to contribute to the development of a subject of area of study.  My purpose is not only to contribute technology, but both  spiritually and morally to a field depraved of both.

Jesus goes on in his teaching during scripture to say:

"Consider carefully what you you hear," he continued, "With the measure you use, it will be measured to you -and even more. Whoever has will be given more; whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him."

I have been given much.  Many talents, many blessings, much love, forgiveness, grace beyond belief.    Yet I complain and grumble at soooo much.  there is a refining of my heart going on .  today we volunteered our last interview shoot for the Hope World Wide documentary interviews.  As I haven't slept much this week I was so tired.  But this is my husbands project and I needed to support him and do lighting and be the "reporter".   Afterwards we show test footage for my thesis while the lights were still up.  And I was humbled - God always gives back.  I saw some major flaws.  , just as I saw them in my character, they are in my film.  All need reworking to that God can shine.  

Much prayer is needed.